The Gregory Brothers performing Silent Night like bosses. This is so good. SO. GOOD.
The funny thing about stats, is that it can be very misleading. It can look quite the positive thing when you see a Twitter account with 1700+ followers. Behind the scenes though, 40% of those followers are inactive, a small portion of them are spam bots that automatically follow due to saying one of a million choice phrases, and the rest don’t fully engage with me even though they’re active because there are so many other people to talk to.
So of 1757 followers, I estimate that perhaps 150 or so actually engage with me on a regular basis.
My YouTube account has 388 at the time of writing, but actively around 60-70 see and watch my videos regularly, about 10 actually comment, thumbs up/down and share, and then the rest of the views are from Twitter. Actually, most of the views are probably from Twitter.
As for my Tumblr, I’m past 500 but unless I post a picture of a famous musician or YouTuber, no-one tends to engage with what’s written here at all.
All I’m saying is that stats are misleading. That’s not a bad thing. I’m a lightly engaged but well known individual in the London area and I am both aware and happy with that.
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It’s a species of jumping spider, Simaetha sp., found in the Sraburi Province of Thailand. Again, not sure of the exact species so not much info on this guy except that these particular fellows were only 4mm in length.
So precious! They look like they’re covered in festive candy wrappers.
trigger warning: supercutespiders.
LOOK JAMIE LOOK AT THESE SPIDERS
Live Like It’s Christmas - Charity Christmas single
I’m credited as stills/production assistant on this wonderful bit of Christmas cheer.
Merry Christmas from the YuleTubers! Please buy this single - all proceeds to charity (Great Ormond Street Hospital in London).
iTunes link - https://itunes.apple.com/gb/album/liv…
And here’s the JustGiving link, in case you’d like to make a larger donation - http://www.justgiving.com/LiveLikeIts…
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There is power in leaving when you want. Growing up, I was so in love with music that every drop of live music would be consumed by me. That included a lot of bland and bad gigs. Nowadays, I adopt the power of being able to leave if I’m not enjoying something. At least knowing I don’t have to stay til the end.
I wasn’t even bored today, just tired. But giving myself a bit more choice and power in decision making is liberating. Bad cinema - leave. Not enjoying theatre? Leave. Don’t stay and ruin the experience for others or yourself. Try it.
Earlier in the year, I attempted to film a short sketch my friend had written about Jenga. With the time constraints and the fact I was supposed to be in it as well as filming, I came up with lots of first-time-filming problems. I planned to re-film the whole thing but that never really happened.
I found the footage last night, and while feeling productive, edited it in a way to look like it does now - it looks like a parody of itself - sarcastic, badly shot, over the top, amateur. But it makes me laugh a lot and I’m actually proud of the final look because I made something I didn’t like into something I did with just some editing and different cuts.
So there you go. Jenga.
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when you have too many people to thank, and get anxious about it.
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Lately, I have such anxiety about trying to be everything to me, and to everybody else. I am so anxious about being busy with work, being liked, being attractive, being successful, not letting my skills and interests go, letting my parents down, depending on people too much, where the next paycheck’ll come from, whether or not I am being used by people, and how much of life has flown by “recently”, that I cannot sleep.
The anxiety tells me that I can’t film. I can’t edit. That I shouldn’t look back at that footage because how will it be as good as the other person’s. How will it be unique? How will it stand the test of time. Why would they chose you? I interview myself so often.
It asks me why I still write and freestyle. Why don’t I do it more. I should do it less. Why don’t you record it. No that’s stupid. It’s my own personal smeagol.
The anxiety stops me from finishing work, as it whispers into my ear that it might not be good enough. Might not be worth the time it took. Might not be worth the money paid. Might not be right. And then the anxiety suggests that maybe I should leave it and walk away. Better yet, to run. That the risks I’ve taken are all a waste. That the time I’m spending is all a waste. “Maybe it is. I am having fun”, I argue back. But at the expense of both time and money. Neither are unlimited.
I’ve seen friends come and go from LONG relationships, since I last dated properly. I haven’t really kissed anyone since June. I thrive on the friendships I have around me that have kept me going. Kept me breathing. Kept me strong. Encouragements. Hugs. Happy faces when I enter a place. Then, once alone with my thoughts, a poisonous low self esteem from my fear of failure and lack of current success has me wondering if these people will be around. Shit, I haven’t even asked someone out in over 5 months but I’ve been shot down a bunch (how it happens, I’ll never know).
So I’m anxious. And I can’t sleep. And that isn’t great. I hide it well. Really well. And I make these videos of me, with me, because that is who I have to look at and learn to love and learn to improve. And because someone out there might be interested in something I have to say once something interesting happens.
And I need to get that off my chest as I lay alone, lonely in bed.
Behind The Scenes of Hayden’s video shoot midweek. Full set here.
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Christmas is coming. Photo set: http://www.flickr.com/photos/jondbarker/sets/72157637886517756/
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